u seem to have somehting called bopara syndrome, basicaly, ur neglecting technique.
seeing as your a number 11, u need to start at basics
forward defensive: wen the ball will hit your stumps, send your weight onto the fornt foot and jam your bat and pad together, wen u have mastered this, u can unlock loads more shots.
back foot defense: send your weight onto your back foot with your head forward, get your body behind the ball and make contact beneath the eyes
i dont care if you know it, but those shotsare the only shots you need.
to get runs, you need to develop a certain shot that will punish a bowler, kp has the leg glance, tim ambrose had the cut, but if you develop a certain area of your agressive batting u can punish a bowler whenever he bowls into your "optimum scoring area"
everyone should have one, mine is the sweep, sweep slog, reverse sweep, it punishes spin bowlers bowling down the leg side, and it punishes off spinners trying to ticle me into a cover drive and having me clean bowled.
check out these videos and master them at home, get a large room in your houyse and swing your bat down in correct fashion, i advice wearing your fornt pad as well so you can see any gaps that can be exploited.
this video is the first of 8 in a series made by bob woolmer