[Teja.]

My foremost ambition has been to enter public life but being a politician in India unless you have the requisite family connections is an impossibility.

Before, I wanted to do something which would not take up my time which if done well would give me a steady if low income(investing etc.) and with the free time concentrate on writing/reading as much possible, not from a journalistic POV, but actual story/novel writing. It's something which has interested me since my childhood. So would say my deepest ambition was to be published author where I am satisfied with the quality of my work.

Since say the middle of 12th grade, I decided to do law and - I don't know for better or worse - but the atmosphere and the social expectations around me have made my ambition to score marks in ridiculously boring subjects like company law, get into a big firm and earn a ****lot and then get into practice and earn more. I suspect that it's more to do with everyone around me wanting the same thing but I don't really know.

Nineteen is not the age to be mind****ed about my ambitions,anyway and thinking about what to do in the future is the single most depressing thing, for me.